this isn't "normail"

I had a SAHalmost 2 years ago and have almost no sensation during intercouse. I am trying not to allow myself to get depressed. I am getting sooo frustrated though! I finally told my husband that I needed him to take more time with me. I am getting angry. It's not his fault. I feel so selfish sometimes and them others I feel so deprived LOL he gets his I want mine. I saw the Doc today and was actually happy I felt the speculum! (although it wasn't uncomfortable. My hsuband doesn't want to have sex with me any more I don't think (it's too much work) maybe that's my own insecurity talking but that's how I feel.