I'm second guessing myself

I'm really wondering if I want to go through with this on the 24. I'm so weepy today and feel like i need to jump out of my skin. Has anyone felt like that ?
As I set here typing this thread tears are running down my face.
I know I need this TAH BSO plus cervix done but I don't know if I can go through with it.

bjmc
Barbara J.

{{{{Barbara}}}} Take a deep breath and relax. If you need to, repeat this exercise until you ARE relaxed

Now that you've calmed down, sit down and make this list:

Break down a piece of paper in two columns. In the one column, list all of the reasons you can think of to not go through this surgery. Now, in the second column, list all of the reasons that led you to scheduling the hyst.

Once the list is completed, weigh the pros and cons. If that isn't enough to help you decide, get a second opinion: after all, a hyst IS a major surgery and should never be headed into lightly.

Whatever your decision, know that we'll be with you every step of the way.

Barbara,

I know how you are feeling!!!! I go in just "3" days!!!! I keep thinking I will wake up and all of this has been just a never ending NIGHTMARE!!!!! What is the reason for your hyst? Im sure its good enough if the Dr has suggested it! I keep telling myself what everyone else keeps telling me....That the waiting is by far the worst part of this whole mess!!!!!! What your feeling is normal, and even though I definately DONT feel normal these days, it will all be over soon enough. I saw a good friend of mine yesterday, and she looked terrible. I said "Whats wrong?" She said, I have terrible cramps!!!! It was then that I realized that after all this is over, that WONT be me anymore! Email me whenever you want ok, and you should probably RE THINK your changing your mind!!!!! Do you really want to continue living in pain????? Just think, hopefully the hyst will be the LAST STRAW to all of this right???? Take care!

Barbara J:
I am scheduled for a LAVH/BSO 10/23. I have known this was a possibility for about 5 years. I am an X-ray tech, and have been in on many surgeries, and taken films on many post-op patients. I did not expect my emotions to get in my way, but I have had bouts of crying and insecurity since I finally decided to schedule! I think it is very normal to feel a sense of mortality, and basically, in my case, a big fear of pain!! Two nights ago, I was trying to figure out what to leave my children if I didn't make it through surgery! The thought of the unknown is the most scary part, wondering if you'll ever feel normal, if hormone therapy will be effective, if sex will hurt, if you'll gain 200 lbs, etc... You can tell all these factors have crossed my mind! I think the best thing we can do is gain all the information we are able, and support each other through this forum. Here's hoping for the best...!


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After reading other threads in the last few minutes I feel somewhat better. I just wish the date had been sooner waiting since Aug on a decission than given a date in Sept for the operation in Oct ( which is the 25 not the 24) is just giving me to much time to think. My DH says yes I want to go through with this. I just haven't been the same person i was before surgery last Oct, tire all the time, cramps and I have the I don't care feeling about some things.

Sorry I"m such a b---- today.


bjmc Barbara J.

Having been where you are at just a short time ago and now on the other side I can honestly tell you the waiting is the worst!! Tr and keep yourself busy so you don't dwell on it. I was so bad before I gave myself a stomach ulcer! Now that it is over it is really great! No more sore boobs, no pms, I actually feel really good! And it is only 2 weeks! Good luck to you and just keep busy. I shopped a lot right before to keep busy. just got my visa bill and figure I better get back to work fast now to pay it off!! LOL Good luck Cathy TAH/BSO .9mg premerin

This is how my story began.
Had a bad pap about 13 yrs ago had cryosurgery. Had to get paps every 6 months since, had 2 more bad ones. Started to have peri-menopause in early 40"s. Was put on HRT, bad hot flashes and night sweats. Have been spotting in between periods for years and the last 3 years has been getting steadily worse. Dr decided to take me off HRT for 3 months to see if the HRT was causing the spotting. Had nothing to do with the spotting but did with emotions was put back on HRT and aslo Zoloft for depression, still on both. In Oct 2000 had a D&C to hopfully correct spotting and remove 2 precancerous tumors. This worked for about 4-5 months and started spotting again and also added heavy bleeding during periods and cramping. My Drs. decided it was about time to take care of this and I agreed then. Because my Mother and youngest Sister both had cancer (hystereotomies took care of their cancer) and another Sister who had many years of bleeding heavily had a hystereotomy. Drs decided this was a good idea for me also.
You know after typing this out it does seem like the best choice for me. It's amazing what talking( in this case typing) can do for a person. I see this IS the way I should go.


Thanks for listening everyone. I'm going to go do it.

bjmc Barbara J

You are not alone, I too have been crying all day today. I feel like I am losing my mind. I am getting SAH/BSO and am so crazed. Its nice to know I am not the only one. I am trying to stay calm but its so hard, just keep venting and letting it out, it does help to do that. God bless