Struggling

I am sitting here at the hospital waiting for my pre-op. I will be back onThursday for surgery. I am really struggling with this. I am 29 and it just doesn't seem right that I have a hysterectomy. I have 3 beautiful kids and really don't want to be pregnant again, so why am I struggling with this so much. Everyone keeps telling me how great it is going to be afterwards, but in my mind I just can't get past that I'm not even 30. Don't get me wrong, I know this is what I need to do and it will be great to not be in pain. I just need someone to not tell me how great it is going to be. I feel like I am loosing part of me. I know my uterus doesn't make me who I am. I guess I just wish people would let me grieve the loss and not tell me how great it is going to be. Thanks for listening.

SarahPooh

You are grieving the loss of choice. It isn't unusual to feel this way, previously you were making the choice now that option is gone. Go ahead and grieve and realize that many people are uncomfortable with grieving, especially if they know you have had issues.

They don't realize that the relief of your issues don't negate the grief over a loss of choice.

You might want to try journalling to allow yourself to work through the emotions. I wrote tons and than destroyed the papers so I could release the emotions.

Sending you

G.