One Year Bleeding --- Vaginal Cuff Tear?

I wrote a really nice note before and discovered the thread was too old....(sigh)...Well, I have thought of you often dear sisters even though I haven't written in a long time. I am over one year since my hysterectomy. I am bleeding, old blood mind you, but there is some pain and a cramp or two. I read that it can be a vaginal cuff tear. I wish I knew what I did to get one of those awards! I read the posts. I am either fortunate or unfortunate to have a "large man" for a husband but he is a gentle and kind man to me. I don't lift anything anymore.
Honestly I have been through a lot of tests lately. Several for MS due to excessive migraines which turned out to be triggered by burisitis which I didn't know I had. The neurologist said he would consider LUPUS but I didn't seem have the symptoms of that either, but I don't know what those are and please don't tell me at this point. The bleeding I am having has been on and off for about two months along with the pain. It's nothing constant and doesn't really amount to much which made me think it was nothing until it happened again this month. And no, the months haven't been consistent either. I have thought over the events surrounding what I was doing when I noticed the spotting and nothing out of the norm which would cause bleeding, nothing rough, no strain, no stretching, no "additional love", nothing that would produce what is happening.
Emotionally I just am at wits end. My husband is still looking for work so I am the only working. It's almost Christmas. I am a candidate for a Ph.D. program....and now I feel like I have to place my education on hold, Christmas will be poorer than it already was going to be (we were just recovering from my last surgery which caused us to file bankruptcy)...so you can see the spiral I am headed in. Yes, I have and am seeking professional assistance on that arena.
I know that I need to go see a doctor but my motivation is just to not go and let things be because I just don't want to face another surgery. Yeah, I know it doesn't automatically mean surgery but it sure feels like my luck these days. My family needs me, both to be healthy and to be working, and I just can't be both at the same time!!! I would like to apologize for being so long winded and to ask for prayers. It's late here for me. I will end this on a very nice note: My sister and I just got home from a great night out together that we get to do once every few years (yes, years). We went to see Rick Springfield in concert for FREE. And since I was last on, I became a grandmother....she's beautiful and yes, another reason to go to the doctor....Maybe sleep will bring some motivation.
Wishing you all the healing and love you need in your life and thanking you for the return!

In a previous life I got to work with Rick Springfield briefly and he was a great guy in real life. Just a side note...

I can imagine how frustrated you are. Many years ago I went to the doctor for frequent sinus infections. My ENT doc had me convinced that I had MS. He sent me on a wild goose chase with specialists and then moved on to Parkinsons. My grandfather and another close friend had just died of Parkinsons. I actually held him when he passed and was very sensitive to this. After what seemed like the longest year of my life it turns out I was just having sinus infections. It was all too easy to ruin my life and mess with my head through all this and I vowed I would never let it happen again.

I share this story with you because I know how easy it is to get frustrated. I spent the last 5 years having irregular periods that messed with my life just in an avoidance of the medical profession. This story then takes a detour.... I have this friend that lost his wife to uterine cancer. She passed 10 years ago. They were really meant for each other, the perfect couple. He has raised their son alone and misses her so much every day. He dates other women and tries real hard but you know after 10 years he still hurts. She had no choice but to leave. They tried everything to try and stop the cancer.

This is why I finally went to the doctor. I didn't have cancer but it was the best thing to find out. They were able to help me. My family is just way to important to me and I owe it to them to put my stuff to the side and just keep trying. I know times are tough for you. I really get the financial stuff and the school stuff but you have to be ok. That is the most important thing. Sometimes you have to step back and look at the whole picture.

Just find out why you are spotting. I think that is important. Do you still have your cervix? Are you having mini periods? Whatever it is I think you need to find out. From there then you can worry about how to deal with it but until then its just speculation.

Take care and hugs

No, I don't have a cervix. (Rick Springfield seems like a really nice guy) and yes, I will go. I just want the weight lifted. I am hurting a little more each day since the post and yes, I fear just the weight the decisions I don't even know about. Fear is a bad bad monster. I died in my last surgery which doesn't make me exactly speed my way to the doctor either. I will call....Monday.