Devastated and post-op day 2

I am 28 years old. One month ago I was diagnosed with stage 1b1 cervical cancer with lymphavascular invasion. My gyne oncologist recommended a radical trachelectomy which was fertility preserving. However, I as warned that they would not know for sure if this procedure was possible till they saw and assessed the tissue while in surgery. I had surgery on May 22nd and ended up having a radical hysterectomy. The cervical tissue was infiltrated with cancer and the uterus needed to come out as well. Although I knew this was a possibility the loss is profoundly overwhelming. I was left with both my ovaries but there is still the looming possibility of radiation, I will find out next week. My doctor recommended "moving" my ovaries out of the radiation zone and also collecting eggs to create embryos to freeze. Fortunately I have had a few people offer to be my surrogate but I don't want to get my hope up because who knows if they will when the time comes along and it's not like surrogacy is a perfect science. All these worries on top of beating cancer.

I am married to an amazing supportive man and have been for 5 years. We planned on having children but before we did we both went back to school. The same month (April 2012) I was diagnosed with cancer I completed my nursing degree. My husband has one more year of school and then we were going to start a family.

Between the cancer diagnosis and the loss of my ability to have a baby I am feeling saddened and alone with my thoughts. My heart aches right now as much as my bloated sore body.

I feel for you and your saddness and your sore body. All I can do is send you loads and loads of hugs.

Hugs hugs hugs you did what you needed to do for your body. It sounds awful when your told you have cancer the idea is no doubt terrifying. Had you not had the surgery what if the cancer had spread? What if you had waited till after a child was here and something awful happened to you :-( try to think of it this way, you are young, you are alive and hopefully on the road to a healthy long life. Maybe this surgery is a blessing in disguise for you. I pray for you to recover quickly and don't give up your dreams for a baby ;-) there are plenty of ways to achieve that happiness. Wheather it be surragant or maybe adoption ;-) rest well and know everything happens for a reason ;-) take care xoxo

unbreakable,

I'm sorry that you are dealing with so much right now. There are a lot of Forums that can help you through this right now. The Post-Op Forum and Cancer Forum may be worth checking out.

Please keep us posted!!

You are in my thoughts and PRAYERS. Stay strong and truly believe that God has bigger plans for you. My surgery hasn't happened yet not until 6/26 .

unbreakable

It is so difficult when choice is taken away on something so basic as having children. I am sending to you, i know it doesn't change the facts but hopefully it will soothe your aching heart.

As already mentioned when you are ready stop in to the Cancer Concerns forum. Ther are many women there who understand your grief and the path you are walking for treatment. They are very knowledgeable and supportive.

I am so sorry that your hurting so much, I'm with you in spirit and sending you lots of hugs. Lots and lots of love and hugs. May you find comfort in knowing that you did all this for your precious life. You are very very special.