Hello, sisters! Thought I would post another update, especially since there are a lot of new sisters here.
I was blessed with a straight-forward, easily repaired cystocele, no previous surgeries of any kind, etc, and my GYN who did the surgery was able to do a stitch repair.
I am back to working out, using the treadmill with a good incline percentage. I'm working up my nerve to go to the Body Pump class (use of bars and free weights set to music) once again, but plan on using free weights instead of the barbell (15 lbs) with added weights, as my lifelong restriction on lifting/pushing/pulling is 20 lbs. Energy is good, possibly better than before the surgery, don't get exhausted and fall asleep on the couch as much anymore!
Now for what you really want to hear about
: my innards. First off, I do NOT go spelunking up in my va-jay-jay when something feels wonky and I do NOT look at my lady parts with a mirror. Did you ever do that before your surgery? Vaginas are wrinkly and muscular and odd feeling (and have way too many folds, both inside and outside) for me to figure out.
I did that once, maybe about two or three weeks after my surgery (when I was freaking out that something was wrong), and decided NEVER AGAIN. My vow to myself is if things feel too weird, or I'm really worried, I'll call my GYN and go see him. I did that with my two month post-surg check up. Things felt weird and I was convinced my stitches had popped. There was no way I could've waited one more week to see him, so I got in, and he did a thorough exam, checking for wound dishesence, hematomas between the two surgical sites, etc. Everything was a-okay, and he reminded me that I have two lines of stitches resting on top of each other, and that there will be swelling for at least 4-5 months after surgery, maybe even 6 months.
I still have weird pinching feelings in my vagina from time to time, on the side wall of the vagina. Sometimes the pinching feeling is on the labia, where the retractors were holding me open during surgery.
If I don't wake up in the night and have to pee a lot in the AM, afterwards it feels all stretched out and loose, even to the point of feeling like my stitches have popped and the bladder has dropped again. Same thing goes for holding on and not going pee during the day.
Having large BMs can a weird experience, even this long after surgery. Seems like large BMs get all my parts aggravated -- some nerve near the vagina gets irritated and results in the oddest feeling, almost like when you scrape your toes on the bottom of the swimming pool. It will also feel like the vagina and urethra are being pushed forward and out of their place, and sometimes feels like the bm is coming through the vagina! (it isn't -- no fistulas here.) I'm careful to get plenty of fiber, water, fruits, etc. Haven't had to use stool softener in 2-2.5 months. I did use Miralax about two weeks ago, as I had slacked off on my fluids for a couple days. After a BM, everything feels swollen, not painful, just swollen. Figures, though, because if you look at female anatomy, there's way too much stuff crammed into our pelvic cavities!
Haven't tried sex yet -- I had lost all interest in it before developing the cystocele, and my hubby has been kind of weirded out about trying to have sex even though I'm cleared to try. I'm afraid it will hurt, and be hard work, and I really just don't want to put in the effort.
That's about it for now. So if you're just a few days or a few weeks out of surgery, and you're up late at night alone, or maybe you're alone during the day, and you're freaking out (like I was one day), just take a deep breath. If you're hurting, or really panicked, call your doctor. It's their job to take calls, no matter if it's a weekday, weekend, day or night. Second, post here -- someone is bound to have had similar experiences. Third, search the forum with very specific keywords. The post that saved my sanity was three years old, but the sister had been experiencing exactly what I was that very day, almost to the letter! I was able to follow her posts and see that she was ok and that, yes, I would be too. Finally, if you are still getting upset, put down the laptop or step away from the computer. Too much info can be a bad thing, especially if it is upsetting you. Be kind to yourself, let your body heal, and be patient. I didn't have stitches on my outsides, so I was rushing myself to be all better at first, until my doctor told me how long it would take to be fully recovered. I hope you are feeling great today and every day.