Praying for the right Answer

Hi there, I'm new too this an a bit nervous too, so forgive my typing a spelling Also a bit shy when talking about my female issue, I had such a long history, but been in the dark about it and never talk about it. Pretty much suffer in silence and thought I was the only one. I just been educating my self more and more about this so I can make the right decision for me. So here's my story... At the age of 19 I had my first child an after healing time my period have never been the same. I had so many accident in my life, where know it normal to carry extra clothes with me during that time of the month. My wardrobe consist of many many black short an pants plus easy access so I can make it to the bathroom, since I clot all the time. I pick when I sit an stand, becuase I know once I stand again I make a mad dash to the bathroom. The sad thing is I have this special walk I do that might be funny to other but for me I squeez as hard as I can so I can make it. When it that time of the month my life pretty much not a life and the toilet my friend. I don't have a social life because this takes a toll on my body. I can bleed up to month are longer, also my period can take a vacation off longer then 2 months, I just never know. I had many surgery I had my first one at the age of 24 where the remove a cyst that was 8 cm, also had a DC done too..... Which that help for about 4 months then back to my normal heavy period. During this time I tried many different birth controll to try to stop my bleeding. Time pass an of course thought of my children was on my mind but just not successful. I was at this point ok with it or tried to be. At the age 28 found out the cyst grew back and bigger so was about to have surgery again. The found out my iron count was so low I have to wait on my surgery and actually have a blood transfusion. I was so anemia the doctor couldnt believe how I function, I just dealt with it an went on. So i final had that cyst remove and another DC done plus the remove one of my overies. About year later I had the huge surprise and my miracle I was pregnant so I finally had a 2nd child. But soon after that my period sent right back. So had my last surgery at 34, the doctor said i had another cyst but he was only going to do a DC and ablation. Which was hard enough to make that choice was unsuccessful. Said he tried twice but it wouldn't take. So i,m right back where I started, making another hard choice a hysterectomy. I'm scared of what this will entail, I been so use to this life I've live even thou it not normal, I just made it normal. Plus after this last surgery I was ok with 2 kids. It just has me thinking again. But also I need to be happy... I'm just lost in what to do

Mmm76, While I can't relate to having children or cysts, I completely understand on the freakish periods, pain, embarrassment and frustration. My heart goes out to you.

After years of dealing with the pain, the marathon periods, not living my life because I couldn't venture from the house without extra clothes and a bag full of "supplies", I finally got to the point where I had suffered enough. I had researched about ablation and was ready to see if I could get it done. After going through several doctors that automatically assumed that all my issues were from me being +50 pounds overweight, I finally found a doctor that would sit down and listen.

After blood work, vaginal ultrasound, biopsies, etc I was informed that I had precancerous cells and a rather large polyp. This was nothing new to me, as I've had cryosurgery twice before. This time, however, my doc urged me that she couldn't in good conscious do the ablation until she removed the polyp and did a d&c to see what we were dealing with.... or (with my history of issues) go the "all in one route" and perform a hysterectomy.

After all these years of hoping to have a child, being in pain, the worry, humiliation, etc... when the word "hysterectomy" came out, I knew in my gut that was the right choice. I knew it was a possibility before that, but the reality of it was staring me in the face. I could go through 3-4 procedures and still have to do the same thing. Now, looking back, I know for a fact that even if I went through the various procedures, the outcome would have been the same.

I prayed about it, turned it over to God and got my answer... which I think I already knew before I left the docs office that day.

I can tell you honestly that it is kinda of scary. It hurt like nothing Ive ever felt. BUT... I know that I made the right choice, I'm healthier, saner and on my way to better things without the pain, frustration and humiliation of a lifetime of miserable periods.

I wish you all the luck in your choice, whatever it may be. Only you can decide what you want and need. Just know that there are others out there that are going through the same thing... you're not alone. This site has been wonderful for me in preparing for and enduring this process.

You are in my thoughts and prayers... May God bless and guide you.