Terrified before hysterectomy

First I will start by saying hello and this is my first post. My surgery is scheduled for 9/11/12 up to this point I have been fine. Last night I could not sleep at all, now I just have a million thoughts running through my head. I am worried about everything, I am afraid I will get sick and no be able to have my hysterectomy, I'm not sure why I have so many thoughts going through my head. I have been in pain with endo for over 16yrs and up to this point I was just excited that I will no longer be in the pain. Now that it's getting closer to having my surgery I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I can not get the thoughts to stop. I know that it is normal to be scared but I feel like I'm paranoid. Has anyone experienced these thoughts before? Is this normal? I just want to be able to calm down and relax before I loose my mind.

I was the same way before my surgery and have read on hystersisters that many others get the same way. It's major surgery and our heads seem to be filled with concerns. Try to write down all your concerns and search here for answers. What you can't find here ask your doctor. As you check off questions and answers on your list you'll find less and less to worry about. Also spending time concentration on getting your family and home ready for recovery can help keep your mind busy.

Thank you for the quick response. I have spoken to my doctor and she has answered all of my questions. We are just starting to recover from a hurricane here and usually after a hurricane lots of people get sick. I am more concerned with that than anything else. I feel like I have waited so long. I am taking vitamin c supplements and now Xanax to help control my anxiety hopefully this will help. Just seems like 4 days away is a lifetime in my brain.

Try to avoid outsiders and use a lot of hand sanitizers! You definitely don't want to get sick before surgery!!Stress can wear down your immune system so try to relax some too! Good luck with your surgery!!

Welcome Angelle!! What you are going through is absolutely normal and you're not being paranoid. We all experience it from one degree or another. You are going to be OK. For most, the the time leading up to surgery is the hardest.

I had my surgery 5 months ago. One of the best things I've ever done. My quality of life has improved tremendously and so will yours. Try and focus on the better quality of life you will have on 5 days.

Try to keep yourself busy. It'll give you less time to focus on anything negative. This Will happen and you're going to look back and say "man, all that worrying for nothing" You might not believe that now, but you'll see later.

Hang in there. It'll be over soon

Lots of ((HUGS)) to you

My date is the same as yours and I can tell you I feel the same. I had my pre op appointment yesterday and now my emotions are all over the place. But in the end I know I will feel much better than I do now. Here's to an uneventful and speedy recovery

Hang in here! Yes, I was a mess beforehand, too. I'm kind of a mess now, too (my surgery was only 2 weeks ago), but it feels much more positive. Does that make sense? I guess I'm trying to say that this will be a long process, so we need to be patient. I'm trying to keep myself busy online - channeling the energy into games, HysterSisters, and email now. It's not as much a waste of time as it is a calming influence, keeping the mind busy.

Speedy Recovery! You can do this.

I felt that way, too! You're not alone. All the suggestions on here about keeping busy and focusing on how much better you'll feel afterwards are right on.

I did a ton of planning and shopping right up until the day before my surgery. That took down the stress level some. I also kept telling myself I was going to spend my time in recovery working on a new image for me...new hairstyle, new clothes (since I would FINALLY be able to fit into regular-sized pants again!!). I looked forward to that, and it helped me.

I wish you peace (and sleep)!

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I have been thrilled at the thought of my surgery....until my preop on Wednesday. That night, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried and cried and cried because I have so many "what ifs" going through my head.

I also understand your fear of getting sick. I work in the medical field and yesterday at work, I was sanitizing the heck out of everything. I was scrubbing handles, the keyboard to my computer, the mouse to my computer, etc. Every single time someone else would touch it, I was right behind them scrubbing it. This morning while waiting on my daughters bus, she sneezed and I flipped out.

Yesterday I was so stressed that I was on the verge of hyperventilating and had to take 1/2 xanax. I NEVER take that during the day, but I may have to the next few days.

This website is a Godsend. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this place to come to reassure me that my fears and concerns are normal.

Phew! I was beginning to think that I am some kind of nut job...... My DvH is the 12th and all of the sudden, I am TERRIFIED of Wednesday. I know in my head that this is something that NEEDS to be done. I know in my head that my doctor has said that this fibroid needs to come out and that it is "very unlikely" it will shrink. I know in my head that my dr also said that things will not get better if I do nothing and that doing this NOW is the easiest possible way (before my options get fewer because of the fibroid size). So I'm not sure why I feel like I am hyperventilating, I can't sleep as of last night, and I seriously think I need to call my surgeon and ask for something to keep me from freaking out between now and Wedesday. At this point, I may puke before the end of the weekend....