Saturday~May 4

Hi everyone,

Welcome to the weekend! Hooray! I've been away a couple of days, but I just read everyone's posts. (I've still been fighting the UTI, but feel much better today. DD had to put me on antibiotics for another week before I go to taking one a day as a prophylactic until I can get on my NHRT. Saliva kit for hormone testing should be here in a day or two--hooray again!)

No exercise today, but pretty much OP. I'm not sleepy yet this evening. I'll check back in later in the daylight and try to catch up with everyone. Have a great Saturday!

Enjoy the day, everyone!

Hello Ladies. I have been reading here daily, but not posting very much. The last two days have been rough for me. I have been working on the issues that are coming up in the posts here at BEST. Self esteem and sabotage to be specific. Then I had pre-op apt. this week. It hit me, surgery is Tuesday. well, my program slipped right out the window. It might be more honest if I say I threw it out the window. Yesterday I broke down and I ate, and ate, and ate, and ate... In between my rounds of bingeing I cried and raged... I know that in the long run I just had a bad day off program, but it feels bigger than that.

SO, here it is 3:00 in the morning and sleep eludes me despite the fact that I took pills that are supposed to send me off for a visit with mr. sandman. I have been sitting here skirting the edges of a huge self pity party. I have two choices. 1-give in, feel sorry for poor old me, keep bingeing and adding to the self hatred and guilt, or 2- kick that pity pot so far that I have to walk ( exercise) to get to it. I think I will kick it away. I am making a time schedule for the weekend. I still have things I have to do to get ready for the castle visit. I have meals to cook and freeze. I have exercise I must do. I am going to keep myself too busy to cave in to seeeking food for comfort, there really isnt any comfort in that if I truly think about it, and too busy to be stressing over my visit to the castle.
I am going to go to bed now and sing the chorus of one of my favorite motivational songs...... "I'm a survivor, I can fly higher, if I can just keep believing in me!"
Today will be a better day...

Hi all --

Em -- I hate to tell you this but Daytona Beach is only 45 minutes away, and it's just as hot there as it is here. Sorry! June, July, & August are the worst down here when it comes to heat!

Cathy -- don't know if it will help any but I know how you feel. It will all be better when your surgery is history. Your plan to stay busy sounds like a good one to me. When I'm on the edge of a pity party if I can keep busy and see myself getting things accomplished I feel better. Hang in there. We are all here for you and we'll be here when you come back from your surgery. Please keep us posted (before you go to surgery and afterwards when you're up to it!) as to how you're feeling.

Shirley -- sorry you're still fighting UTI. DH is in wheelchair and lots of guys in wheelchairs have constant problems with those........only advice I have to offer is cranberry juice or cranberry pills. My mom has problems with them all the time but it's because she hardly ever drinks any water! I think she's a camel in disguise!

Well my dh is going to be fishing all weekend (he'll be home tonight and leave again tomorrow) he left at 4:40 a.m. and it was already 75 degrees! He's going to fry out there, but we do tournaments all the time so he knows how to protect himself and when enough is enough! I'm headed to the gym for treadmill and BodyPump class and then I'm going to come home and continue packing, we're headed to our summer house in upstate NY next week. Also plan on finishing a crosstitch project today......it's too hot for me to do anything outside.

I have been doing pretty good about staying OP.......we're not buying any groceries so we can use up what's here and what's here is all the healthy stuff I've been buying the last few months!

Have a good weekend everybody!
Ann

Hello all,

I've been so busy lately, I just haven't had time to post here. I do try to read every few days.

We're painting the trim on our house! Ugh! We're in a rush because we leave on vacation on Friday and want to have it all done before we go.

My eating habits -- well, lets just say I really, really celebrated my birthday on Thursday. We went out and I ate half my dinner, then ordered dessert - a brownie w/ ice cream, whipped cream and hot fudge. I did share it with two others (does that count???) I enjoyed every bite!

I hope I can control myself on vacation. I'm meeting up with half a dozen friends, two different times, so that will be a challenge. We all love to eat.

(((Cathy))), I'll keep you in my thoughts on Tuesday. In a month, you'll be feeling so much better than you do now! Where are you in Kansas? Forgive me if I've asked this before. I'm old and have no memory left! LOL I'm in Wichita.

s to everyone else, too.

Hi Everyone!!!

Got Your Water?????

Well I survived my first night back at the Moon!! I was sooo tired when I got home, guess I forgot how much walking there is with waitressing!! I did however read the posts after I got off but just didn't have the energy to reply, sorry! I know I definetly need new shoes! My muscle along my shin is soooo sore on my left leg from all the walking that I had a hard time sleeping, it just burns like crazy! And I get to go in and do it all over again tonight

I did make in totally OP yesterday..... Yay!!!!! I must say though I almost caved last night and had a big piece of ice cream cake. I went as far as having it on the plate and a spoon and heading for the couch with it and then EM's word's "hit me" asking me if I was able to stay OP today?? Well, I did NOT want to tell you all that I had failed once again so I told myself NO I am NOT going to do this!!! Then I wrapped it back up and put it in the freezer and went and got a skinny cow instead!! (well 2 actually, but I counted them!! and they were a lot less points than the ice cream cake would have been )AND it did not put me over my pts range!! So....Thank You!!!!{{{EM}}}

Sara~~ I hope you have a good time with all the walking today!! Glad to hear your cholesterol is down!! My DH has just started taking Zocor, so hopefully he will do well with that.

BrendaLee~~ Good for you being OP yesterday and with car
problems to boot!!! That is really wonderful!!

{{{Sue}}}~~ PLEASE don't give up.... You deserve to try again!! We ALL have had totally OFF days but it's OK to do that as long as you get right back in there and keep trying! Like they "a set back is merely a set up for a comeback"!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

{{{EM}}}~~ Hope you are making out well getting all the info loaded into your new puter. I am so sorry you are struggling getting back OP, hang in there it!! I know you CAN DO IT!!!

Denise~~ Good for you staying OP!!! Hope the H2O is easier for you to get in today!! I'm sending you warm sunny weather to melt away some of that depressing winter weather!!!!!

{{{Tamara}}}~~ I am soo sorry you had a disappointing weigh in, you'll do well next time!! I am very happy to hear that aren't going to let that stop you and use it as an excuse to just go off program!! Good for you, keep up the great job you have been doing to lose the 7.2#!!!!!

{{{Shirley}}}~~ So sorry to hear you are still fighting that UTI!! They are soo awful. Good for you having an OP day yesterday, hope all goes well for you today too!!

{{{Cathy}}}~~ I am sooo sorry to hear that you have been struggling!!! I KNOW how hard it is when these episodes happen!! I am sooo glad to hear that you have opted to go with choice two and kick that pity pot as far away as you can!! Good For You!!!! I also had a few totally OFF program days of binging this week myself. I have been working on trying to get control of emotional issues also and that is a really tough one for me to handle, but I know that if I want to be successful at being healthier I MUST he healthy emotionally as well as physically!! So I am going to look on it as a postive adventure of getting to know myself better and learning to like me more, so how can that be bad or scary??? (at least that is what I am telling myself anyway)

Ann~~ Glad to hear things are back to normal for you at your gym. Hope things go well with your packing to move up to your home in N.Y.!! It's great to hear you have been staying OP!! Good For You!!! I LOVE hearing about you going for your workouts, it is so inspiring for me to go do something too. Will you be able to continue with the same type of workouts at your other home in NY?? (sorry can't remember if you've mentioned that before or not)

Nita~~ Happy Belated Birthday!!!! I think you did amazingly well only eating half your dinner and then spliting that hot fudge brownie dessert with 2 other people!!! Wow... I am very impressed at your dedication!! I would have hogged it all to myself. LOL So YES MAM that definetly counts a great thing in my book!!!! Hope you have a great time on vacation!!!

Well I better go and get some things done around the house besides this is getting really long, Sorry!!! I'll check back in after work tonight.

Hope you have the BESTEST OP Day Ever!!!!!

BTW~~ When Are You Going To Exercise Today?????
(Ha,ha.....bet you thought I wasn't going to ask, huh?)

Take Care, Dawn


TAH/BSO 6-29-01

203/182/135 ~~ 21 lbs gone forever ~~

Well I have been off the computor for a couple of days. I am feeling better. Everyone at work is accusing me of not eating enough. I do eat enough. I just don't eat junk food anymore and I only drink water. I think it sinus. I have been good op. My daughter came home from college and told me I was shrinking and I had lost so much weight. I really felt great to hear that from her. I have cut back on fruits but still eating plenty of vegetables.

Cathy good luck on your surgery. You will be in prayers.


Everyone have a bless op day!!!

Michelle

Hello BEST Sisters!

I always miss the Wed-Fri when I miss posting!! I just got caught up reading the posts and it sounds like Spring and our busy lives are creating a struggle for our weight loss journey's!

I KNOW WE CAN DO THIS! Each of us has had a bump in our road that we have had to deal with. But we are all successes because we have made it back here! Even if the eating and excercise routines do not bounce back instantly, just having the courage to post here, admit our mistake, and plan to better is a leap in the correct direction!

Stop and take a look in the mirror today and say something nice to yourself........... YOU DESERVE IT!!

Well so far so good today. I got on the scale this morning and I was down to my lowest weight since I started WW again, so I am very happy. I still need to do my structured exercise, but I'm moving a lot today as I'm getting ready for a work picnic at our house on Friday. DH is at work. DS is helping tremendously out in the yard and by the lake. Lots of house stuff to do. They'll hardly spend any time in the house, but I want it to look really good and it needs it anyway.

Michelle--That must have felt wonderful for your daughter to say that to you! Since she doesn't see you daily, she gave you an honest assessment. They say people who see you on a daily basis don't notice your weight loss as much. Glad you're feeling better. I'm happy that you're not letting your caring co-workers sabotage you. I've read that just drinking tons of water can prevent sinus infections. (I have been drinking even more since I read that.)

Dawn--Good job on eating the skinny cows instead of the ice cream cake. (I know what you mean about thinking of your BEST sisters and having to report in. Dr. Phil says weight loss only works if you're accountable to someone.) Thanks for the words of encouragement!

Tamara--Losing 7.2 pounds in a month is still wonderful! Just keep plugging away like you said!

Cathy--I totally understand you getting stressed out about your surgery and overeating. My thoughts and prayers will be with you on Tuesday. You were so smart to get on the healthy eating and weight loss track before your surgery. I'm sure you'll get back on the right path and stick with it! Remember to use the Pre-Op board to vent and get support along those lines. There are tons of ladies there and here who want to help and wish you the best! s

Ann--Thanks for the good wishes. I do feel so much better today. I almost had a meltdown Thursday night when I found out DD had called when I was in between work and home about 4:40 and DS didn't tell me until 8:00. It probably wouldn't have done any good. I probably wouldn't have been able to reach DD's office before it closed to talk to him anyway but aarggh. So I spoke to DD on Friday and got a new plan of action, which is working. I bought some more cranberry juice today. I still want to get some more pills. Thanks for reminding me. Hope your move back to NY goes well and that your finished your cross stitch project. I love cross stitch, but haven't done anything recently.

Nita--I have to echo what everyone else said. You did great on your birthday--eating half your dinner and sharing the brownie dessert with two others. Woo hoo for you!

Sara--Congrats on the cholesterol reduction!

Brenda Lee--You are going to do so well with WW--you have such a positive attitude. Way to go for staying OP even though you had a yucky day.

Denise--I don't think I could handle snow in May. Bravo for staying OP! I know you miss yur painting.

Hope everyone else has a good day! (If I missed you it doesn't mean I wasn't thinking of you and wishing you well!)

OK someone tell me please how in the world you all manage to address each and every person in here. You guys are SO GREAT! Each and every one of you are so wonderful and caring.
While we tend to concentrate on our failures, we need to concentrate on the wonderful things that we accomplish in our lives. Read your posts ladies, you guys are fantastic. Acknowledge, your failures and make sure that you rejoice in the positives that you accomplish everyday. Just remember that tomorrow is another day and even if you go OP today you will stay on tomorrow.
Now someone please remind me of this when I go OP for a day
Have a GREAT evening gals