sanity regained

It has been nine long months since my hysterectomy but thankfully I am getting back to feeling like my old self......strike old.....new self.
I had an abdominal hyst. I had my uterus and cervix removed and kept my ovaries, my doctor put me on HRT the day after my surgery, due to a costant flow of tears. Looking back, I know the tears were due to the extreem pain I was in and the fact that I was in a materinty ward with tiny, gorgeous, crying babies all around me, the fact that I would never be able to have a baby with my new husband (even though we have 7 children between us) was a sad reality to face.
My road to recovery was a long one and I seemed to be in constant pain, not from the very large slice across my abdomen but from inside and I was suffering constant loose motions and bowel pain. I was lucky enough to have a doctor assist the op whom I knew very well, he came to see me post op and prescribed Voltaren suppos. for the pain, they worked like magic and he said that he does not know why more doctors do not prescribe them as they are an anti infllammitory, they were fabulous. Anyway to cut a long story short, (pardon the pun) I had been living in a mist of emotional hell, depression, massive weight gain after the op and even suicidal thoughts, I had been prescribed anti depressants, which made me feel a little better but not quite with it,... then I had a breast Cancer scare a couple of months ago, a lump was found, I went to see my GP who had been away for several months and he was horrified to read what I had been through emotionally, he could not understand why I had been put on HRT when I still had my ovaries which were working fine.
He said (as did the nurse at the Breast screening clinic) that I had had an overdose of eostrogen which could have caused the mass in my breast (luckily not cancer) The Gyno who did my Hyster also told me that I would never have to have another PAP smear, as he removed my cervix, which I have been told now is not correct, we should have a cavilty smear if we are still sexually active, abnormal cells can still occur, I am only 43yrs old and when the time comes to need HRT, I will know, HRT is wonderful for those who really need it but can be terrible for those who don't.
I have been off HRT for 2 months now and off anti deppressants and I feel great, I have lost weight and have the energy I have been craving all these months, no hot flushes and I only cry at sad movies (or when I stub my toe)
I feel alive again and am happy to be celebrating the Birth of my first Grandchild.

Sorry to hear you had such a long painful journey before reaching this happy stage. I wanted to make a comment re. the voltaren suppositories, no pun intended, is it only down under countries prescribing them? I found them brilliant too and made a couple of posts recommending them to other princesses, especially ones who were having vomiting problems. Perhaps they are called something else in U.S. Hope everything continues on the up and up for you, best wishes, Linda