I CAN'T DEAL WITH ANYMORE

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. SEEMS EVER SINCE I DECIDED TO HAAVE THIS SURGERY MY LIFE HAS FALLEN APART. I THOUGHT MY HUSBAND WOULD STAND BY ME AND HELP ME BUT OF COURSE I WAS DISAPPOINTED AGAIN. HE HAS NOW LEFT ME WITH 5 KIDS AND NO MONEY SINCE I HAVE BEEN OFF WORK FOR 10 WEEKS. THOUGHT HE WAS MAKING HOUSE PAYMENTS ALL ALONG AND OF COURSE HE HASN'T BEEN. NORMALY I PAID ALL THE BILLS. FINALLY, I DO REALIZE IT IS A BLESSING HE IS GONE BUT WISH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AT A BETTER TIME. I HAVE HAD PROBLEMS WITH DEPRESION AND ON ANTI-DEPRESSANTS. SEEMS TO HELP A LITTLE. 9 YEAR OLD HAS BEEN SICK SO I HAVEN'T HAD MUCH SLEEP. I GUESS EVERYTHING HAS JUST BEEN BUILDING AND BUILDING AND I AM LOST. SINCE SURGERY I HAVE HAD MY SISTERS BABY DIE AND MY NIECES TOO. MY ONE AUNT IS DYING OF OVARIAN CANCER. THEY ARE MOVING HER TO NURSING HOME TODAY. MY OTHER AUNT IS HAVING SURGERY FOR BREAST CANCER AUGUST 1ST. MY MOM HAD SURGERY FOR BLADDER REPAIR LAST WEEK AND MY DAD HAD SURGERY ON HIS SPINAL CHORD 3 DAYS BEFORE MY HISTERECTOMY. DOES THIS EVER END? I AM SO EXHAUSTED AND WORRIED I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I AM SCARED FOR ME AND MY KIDS. JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO FIRST. OR EVEN WHERE TO START. OH WELL. I THINK THIS HAS HELPED A LITTLE. THANKS PATTIE

Sister girl, Know that I love ya and will do anything to help you out. We all go through the goings through at one time or another. Stand firm in yourself and PRAY. Pray like you never have before. Know that GODS plan for each of us is a litte different.. And if he left then you and the kids are better off. Remember to rest and your HRT will help a little with the depression even though I think we all go through it after surgery....

LOVE ya Stephanie 05/18 TVH

Oh Pattie, What a plateful you have right now. It is so hard to find solace when so many problems are part of our lives. You certainly can and should vent to your heart's content here. That's why we are around. ALso, is there a close friend nearby who can be a source of support for you? Sometimes it helps to have "face time" when talking about problems...and solutions.

I'm not there, so please accept this heartfelt gentle hug. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Peace to you.

Patti! You are a doll to reply to my post, when your life is in such a turmoil right now. I know that when things got so bad for me, I prayed to my guardian angel every day, and things finally came through. Sometimes we find out who we can rely and lean on for support in the hardest of times, and sometimes it's difficult to accept the outcome! My prayers are with you...try to reach out as much as possilbe to friends and family for support, even though they're having traumas in their life, you'd be suprised to see who comes forward! I will pray for you and your family to have the courage to hang on... xxxurssy

My prayers go out to God for you. It sounds as if every support person in your life is going through their own struggles and you are their support.

I don't know whether you are a member of a church or group or organization, but if you are you should ask them for help. Maybe this would be a good time to locate a local support group for women going through Divorce.

I wish I could be there with you and help you personally. I think I would just roll into a ball and cry for a year if I were you. You are doing so well during this difficult time.

May God bless and keep you.

Patti

Wow!!! You and your family are sure going through a lot! I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of all of you, and sending out many prayers!

{{{HUGS}}}

mary

((((((Pattie)))))))))
My heart and prayers go out to you. You must be a very strong person to even be able to have the energy to get into the computer and type. May God send you many angels to comfort you and bring you help. You need God with skin on right now. I hope that you see some glimmer of hope and relief soon. Bless you!

{{{{Pattie}}}}

Anytime you wanna talk, IM me, ok???

Patti, I have been through similar times like the ones you are going thru. I felt like 'okay who wants to kick me next?' The only thing that got me thru was my faith , prayers and knowing my daughter counted on me to carry on. I pray mighty blessings for you and your family, you will get through and you will be stronger for it. Remember God never places more on us than we can handle, it may not seem that way but it is true. God Bless you honey and take good and gentle care of yourself.