I'm two weeks post-op and almost starting to feel like a human again.
There are still things I'm afraid of, though.
I guess I'll start with what I was not
afraid of since it's a shorter list. (Short means one
item, in fact.) I was not
afraid to drive a short distance. Yesterday I drove to the post office drop off, only 2 miles, with no problem.
Okay, things I'm afraid of:
1. Drinking a soda. I used to drink Diet 7-Up all the time. I still desire them, but am afraid of what it might do to my tummy! I guess that's why they invented Gas-X?
2. Drinking a glass of wine. I've really been wanting one (and am not on HRT or any type of medication), but am afraid it might do something weird to me.
3. Eating anything other than the blandest of foods: fruit, bagels, soup. Don't know what it would do to me.
4. Seeing humans. I still don't want to see too many people, especially a lot of people at once, because I still feel like I look weird.
5. I was afraid to even take my bandaids off (had LAVH) until Day 12 when I *had* to because I was going to my 2 week post-op the next day. I finally took the darn things off.
6. I'm afraid to try on my jeans or other pre-op clothes.
7. I'm afraid of people walking with their dogs -- I'm afraid their dog will jump on my abdomen.
8. I'm afraid of crowds and running children: afraid someone will run into me, bump me in the wrong place, or knock me over.
9. I'm afraid of seatbelts when I'm a passenger (when driving, it didn't bother me at all).
10. I'm afraid of lying on my stomach (haven't even tried).
11. I was afraid of a shower after removing my bandaids. It wasn't so bad, though.
12. I'm still a bit nervous about crossing a street: not sure if I could move fast enough if I needed to.
13. I'm afraid of lycra sweat pants or anything tight.
14. I'm afraid of hot flashes because I haven't experienced them yet.
15. I'm afraid of my strong reaction when I see cute guys on TV (is it too much testosterone, or am I crazy, or both?)
16. I'm afraid I won't be able to find a date the company Christmas party. (Okay, so that might not be related to surgery...)
17. I'm afraid someone will ask me when I'm "due" and that the pooch in my swellybelly has taken up permanent residence.
18. I'm afraid of isolating what's left of my friends by saying, "Look at my belly puncture: can you believe they put a tube with a camera through here?" and then showing them the pelvicfloor.com photos. I just can't understand why my friends don't want to be around me anymore ...
19. I'm afraid of being forgotten and dismayed that the world goes on without me.
20. And speaking of being afraid, I'm afraid of Halloween this year!
Your turn? :dance2: