It is perfectly normal for alot of us to feel the same way you are feeling right now, before such a huge event like this surgery. You should have seen me before my lap last April.... I can truly relate.
The wait is the hardest part of all this, really. You are gonna be alright and it will be over and done with before you know it.
Try and focus on what is good and how your life will be better afterwards. No more pain, mess and all that goes with it. You will feel so much better and be able to concentrate on what really matters, yourself and your beautiful family.
How about doing things with friends like going out to lunch or some favorite outing you like to do to help get your mind off being nervous about the surgery. Get your kids involved in helping get the house ready for your recovery and making it fun like putting favorite music on when you do. Pampering the Princess can never hurt ahead of time.....take your walks, read a good book, bubble baths.....
I think your children are being so sweet. My son was great and he is almost the same age as yours. When they want to openly help and show caring emotions towards you, take all you can get, when you can get it, savor it. It will help get you a long way in your recovery.
The first thing I saw when they woke me in my castle room after my surgery was a note from my son on the dry erase board my castle uses for staff names and such for the patients. He wrote "I love you Mom" and drew a
. That meant the world to me. Especially in the immediate post op time.
I hope they do understand that it is ok and normal for you to feel this way right now and that it wont last forever.
As you know, we do understand and you may "run off at the mouth" anytime you feel the need. We will be here for you.
Blessings for a uneventful castle stay and restful recovery.
Please post and let us know how you are doing when you are up to it.