Just Me, my Fibroid and Uterus!!

Tonight is the last night with my dear old uterus and it's tag along friend Fibro. As I sit here writing to you all, it seems very strange to think after almost 50 years of living with an essential organ part (one that was home to my two babies, now grown) it will be gone tomorrow with a few snips of a knife.

Even though I am past the part of being "emotionally attached" to that part of my anatomy, I can't help but feel a little sad that a part of me will be forever gone, fibroid and all!! I'm trying to think of it like a tonsillectomy; they served their purpose for awhile but became infected, made me sick and needed to come out!

So tonight while I fitfully try to get to sleep; I will massage my belly and tell my uterus what a good girl she was and how wonderfully she performed the duty of cuddling my daughters until their birth. Maybe this sounds a little lame to some people; but it's my way of telling myself, it's okay; I've made the right decision.

See you ladies on the other side with my shiny new crown!!!

Blessings from above,

Debby

Yes Debby it is ok!!! I felt the same way and expressed my feelings to my grown daughter. She said, " good grief Mother, you have my permission to throw out the crib...I don't want it."
She said she wanted me well again and back to my old self. I'm sure your daughters would have similiar feelings. So, it is only us who have the problem with it..and it is just a matter of attitude. Keep thinking about your tonsils...


Best of luck to you. I'm 54 next month and will now most likely keep my fibroid filled uterus...as that was the majority vote. But, you'll do fine. You may not sleep well tonight...just feel your feelings..go with it. Soon it will be over.

Hi Debby, I understand your sadness but my dd (like Maralyn's) said that she rather have me alive and healthy. If the crib isn't needed any more it's ok to get rid of it. I'm sure that your DD"s feel the same. You'll still be their mom - just healthier.
I'll be praying for you tomorrow , please let us know how you are when you can.
S

Hi Debby,
I too, felt the same way as you. I kept thinking that I can't believe I will be getting rid of my uterus which was the home to my 3 grown children for 9 months. They all thought I was crazy feeling this way. I am scheduled for a TAH on 2/19/03 and am driving myself crazy with worry. Anyway, my 16 year old daughter told me not to worry about getting rid of her first home (my uterus), as long as I am around to stay in our present home.
Good luck to you.
Ljean

Hello Debby,

I am so happy to hear that you feel the same way that I did. It took me almost 5 years to make the decision to part with my uterus. I too felt that it was home to my 5 children and didn't want to loose that part of me. I am in my 50's and the comfort I have had in the past 10 months without that darn period was worth all the surgical discomfort. You will feel so much better after this is all over with.

We still have our kids to look at and our parts did their jobs and now it's like they went into retirement. Right?

I remember being 2 months post op and seeing a newborn baby at the dentist office. I felt so sad, I can't imagine that I would feel that way. I had my tubes tied over 18 years ago at the time of my hyst, but yet I felt sad and I felt a loss. Actually I think even at this time I feel a sense of loss. I have been put on anti depressants to help me over this hump. Strange how our emotions kick in after something like this. I hope you don't have this part. Well good luck with the surgery, I just wanted you to know that you are not alone with feeling sad. Talk to you soon. xxoo Paula