I cancelled my appt for May 5

After crying the last few days I was upset at the fact of facing another surgery..I called my gyn this morning and cancelled as I was having a hard time concentrating at work and felt sick over this..when I called the dr he said this is the only thing that is going to fix my problem. I mean I just don't get it!!!I have normal paps I had a cyst rupture when I was 17 (now 29) that required immediate surgery and that was repaired. I've had ultrasounds and a sonohysterogram to see what was happening and 2 times in the last year of freezing done to the cervix..The big problem here only happens after any kind of sexual activity there will be massive bleeding(gross!!!) and clotting. The dr will do a D&C on the 16 of april only at my request because he said I am going under anesthetic for nothing because a d&c will not fix my problem.. I haven't heard of too many other options but I just don't think at my age I am ready for that..I would love to be able to get rid of this problem once and for all but I may have to put up with it until I can accept the fact of having a hyst done..I will take a chance of the D&C and who knows maybe a miracle will happen!!!This website has been absolutely wonderful and I have learned a lot from you girls!!Thanks again for your input..I'm sure I will make a decision one day and feel confident that I am making the right choice for me!!

Hi Jenny,

Again, I hope you'll consider getting a second opinion. If your gyn doesn't think the D&C will help, then why did he/she agree to try this? I really hope this will help you.

Is the cause of bleeding after intercourse the abnormal cells? Have other procedures for the abnormal cells been discussed?

You might want to check out the Cancer Concerns forum, in case some of the gals there have been through similar experiences. Again - not saying you have cancer, but many of them had problems with abnormal cells prior to having their hysts.

Sending more hugs your way. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

Beth

Oh Jenny... I can almost feel the pain in your post ! It is so disheartening to live every day with the pain and other effects of these illness that torture us. And feeling that there is only one way to truly improve your life, a way that you are NOT ready for... makes it all seem hopeless at times. Our problems are different, but I really feel from reading your words, that the pain and resentment is very much the same.

I suffer from endometriosis, and have been told that the only "cure" is a hysterectomy. I'm a bit older than you are, (I'm 35) and have one child. I would love to have more, but hope gets weaker everyday. I told my doctor after he gave me some options of treatment, that I would prefer the "magic wand" treatment ! I would rather just wake up in the morning and NOT have to deal with this. Then, of course, I see, or hear of others who suffer so much more..... those who suffer greater pain of the same illness that I have, those who have so much, even their lives taken by illness (such as cancer), those who are unable to have even one child and desperately want one.... and realize that I am, although I do feel a mess very often, so very blessed. This realization does not take away my pain, neither physical nor emotional, it only adds pain for others suffering and guilt to it.

I do NOT want to have my insides taken out ! The finality that comes with that surgery is something that I do not feel emotionally ready for. Then I feel.... well hmmm, just WHY am I unable to commit to something that would most likely improve my quality of life? All of this leaves me more confused and helpless feeling than ever. It's viscious !

I don't know, maybe these feelings are nothing like what you are going through.... maybe it was the way that I perceived your words, or just the overshadowing of my own inner struggles as I read your post. Please feel free to email me if you would like to just let your feelings out! I'm here to listen.... don't know that I would have any advice, or words of wisdom, (other than agreeing that a second opinion would be beneficial) , but I can listen, and offer you this....

Best wishes for comfort and peace !