This is week 7 being home since my rectocele/enterocele surgery. I am bored out of my mind. I've been home 3 times this last year with recoveries from surgeries. It has gotten to the point where I don't want to read anymore or even work on my crocheting. I just want to go back to work as odd as that sounds. I go back Monday for 2 weeks, then off for the tvt. Sometimes I think I want to skip the tvt for now and go as long as I can without addressing the stress incontinence. It isn't real bad right now, but at the same time I want to fix the problem so I can go on with my life.I don't know how long I will have to be off of work.
I am planning on taking a class at the local college this summer to get my feet wet again. I just want all of my medical issues behind me by then. It seems like I live with the fright that something else will pop up and I will need another surgery. My abdoman has been hurting for 10 months and I guess that is why I feel this way.My gyn told me if I prolapse again I will need pelvic reconstruction. This really puts fear into me as I am a very active type of person. This recovering business really makes it hard on me emotionally.I never had all of this anxiety before I had my hyst. Go figure!
I am scared to go back to work, then leave again. I can't even imagine what my co workers must think of me.I never missed much work before I had my hyst. I worked through the days feeling miserable.I guess that part of me doesn't want to work like that anymore.It was physically and emotionally draining.