I guess journaling will be my outlet. I have so much fear inside of me I don't know what to do. These days waiting to hear from the neuro surgeon are lasting way too long. I've done alot of research on here this weekend and now I am terrified! Alot of my symptoms are causes for immediate back surgery. Just too bad the neuro office don't seem to think I need to get in right away. I have no vaginal feelings (no sensations from my recent surgery). I had no sexual sensations and no sensations from my posterior surgery in Jan. According to urodynamic testing in July I held way too much water before feeling a need to go.They said that was not normal, but didn't know what was causing it. I had been under the care of a colon rectal dr. for months. I was on all kinds of fiber, laxatives, suppositories, but I still had to push in my vagina to have a bm. These bowel and bladder symptoms are reason to have surgery right away. What scares me is this has been going on for a very long time. I wish one of these dr's would have sent me for a MRI months ago when I complained of no sensations. I wouldn't have to be going through all of this now. I am trying to recover from the tvt and anterior repair surgery and at the same time have to deal with my back problem. I can't sleep for long before waking up with my legs, hips and back killing me. My legs also tingle and go numb. I have leg spasms too.I realized today that I probably have upper spine problems too. I pop and crackle between my shoulder blades. I also noticed a couple weeks ago I had pain in my left arm and left ribs. I had to hold my arm close to my chest while walking to keep it from hurting so much.I also get pain in my left hand off and on. I had xrays on it in Dec., but didn't find a cause. I notice I drop things alot when at work.My GP thought maybe I had some carpel tunnel. I don't think so now.These are all symptoms of upper spine problems. I didn't tell the neuro office about this. I was hurting so bad in my lower back that I never thought to say anything about it. Right now as I sit here typing my left leg and foot is tingling and going numb.I don't feel I can go many more days like this. I just wish my uro/gyn who did my surgery last Monday would call the neuro office tomorrow and tell them I need to be seen now. My uro/gyn is the one who ordered me the MRI while I was in the hospital. He wanted me to have a neuro consultation before I was discharged Wed., but it was not possible.It is so hard for me to believe that everyone of these dr's are too busy to make a phone call in my behalf. I am afraid I will wake up paralized one day if something doesn't get done soon. I better go now as tears are building up and I won't be able to see to type soon.