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Taking control of my life 01-04-2005 - 12:58 PM
I've spent a lot of time trying to figure out what makes me tick - why, even though I hate what I've done to my health, my body, my self esteem, do I still reach for the chocolate? Or the cookies? Or the ice cream? Sure, a little is ok, but that's if you have the willpower to stop at just a little.

Years ago I joined Weight Watchers. I was so successful, it was amazing. I was within 5 pounds of my goal weight, and did it in just a very few months time (lost about 40#). I was the poster child for the "perfect" weight watcher. Then life got crazy, I stopped making good choices, and regained it all, and with the ensuing years, 20+ more, or about 60 pounds.

I've been trying to think what was different then, why was it so easy? Because it was easy. What I have come up with: we had just sold our house and were living in a rental house temporarily. We didn't *settle* in, yes the kids had their toys and stuff, but there was no clutter at all. No knick knacks around, out of season clothes were in storage - it was very peaceful. I ate the same thing almost every day - 3/4 oz of Rice Krispies with milk, orange juice for breakfast. A sandwich that I made myself in the morning before I went to work, and at least 3 evenings a week 4 oz of chicken with green beans for dinner. Those 3 evenings DH was working and the kids would eat whatever I gave them. I weighed and measured everything, and wrote down every bite in my food journal. I didn't want chocolate, I didn't need it.

By the end of the summer we were in the middle of renovating a house. There was a lot of work like painting, that we had to do ourselves. I got out of my rhythm, and dinnertime was usually at the new house, so we had to eat fast food a lot. My weight loss stopped, but for a few months didn't go up either. After we moved into the house it seems like my whole world became chaotic. Instead of a nice slow move, we did it in a day, everything got moved and piled up to be dealt with later. A year later there were still boxes not unpacked.

There have been many many weight loss and exercise programs since then - Weight Watchers a few more times, TOPS, NutriSystem, SlimFast, stationary bikes, ski machines, elliptical trainers, weights, Yoga, Pilates, bike riding, walking, Richard Simmons, Jane Fonda - you name it, been there, done that.

But I keep coming back to clutter in my life, it seems like that is my trigger, I am an emotional eater. Two years ago I discovered Flylady, and have been working at getting the clutter out. When I'm doing good at it, and the house is neat and tidy, I feel so much better, and I'm not eating emotionally. But let things get out of hand and where are those M&M's?

What or who is a Flylady? Her name is Marla, and she has a website (www.flylady.com), a book, and she sends out daily (lots of them) reminders about things that need doing. I need routine and from her I am getting that, I'm only fluttering right now, I have a long way to go to banish the CHAOS and FLY, but by taking babysteps, both in decluttering and in making changes to my lifestyle, I WILL BE IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE, and my emotions.

blissful said at 01-04-2005 - 01:37 PM
Interesting re your "clutter" discussion...I've been feeling that the physical clutter in my life also represents the clutter in my mind/body. I have the "public" part of the house vs the hidden the chaos areas, as I have the "public" version of myself vs the the at home me. I am also right brained, so clutter is part of me and when I make lists to follow, I am apt to lose them. I remember settiing up the "SHE" system of cleaning/organizing the house 20 years ago, and it just gathered dust. LOL!


Kim M said at 01-04-2005 - 06:37 PM
You can do it! Believe it or not, I was once very overweight. Here and there I've put some of it back on, and can attest to the fact that it was MUCH easier the first time to lose 50lbs when I was 20, than it was to lose 10lbs when I was 35. I think as time goes on, things that were easy for us, for whatever reason become more difficult.

As another example, when I first started back to college, studying was easy for me, doing the homework was a snap and the tests were a breeze! Flash forward 8 years and suddenly the classes became stressful, studying wasn't as easy as it used to be and the tests made me :hair: Yes, I still did well, but it took ALOT more effort.

I think admitting to the changes you need to make are a big first step. We're here to cheer you on my friend.


cow32323 said at 01-04-2005 - 08:51 PM
thats an interesting insight ... Im not at all organised in the list this or that way .. everything goes into my mobile and when tiem coems for something it beeps haha

you can do it . I dont have a wieght issue but i sued to manage the TAF club for secondary school . I had problems balancing that and my ffamilys demands and i saw some interesting cases where my pupils would lose weighrt healthily then regain it over the endof the academic year holidays in december

Try inccreasing your activity rate somehow .. good luck





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