I've spent a lot of time trying to figure out what makes me tick - why, even though I hate what I've done to my health, my body, my self esteem, do I still reach for the chocolate? Or the cookies? Or the ice cream? Sure, a little is ok, but that's if you have the willpower to stop at just a little.
Years ago I joined Weight Watchers. I was so successful, it was amazing. I was within 5 pounds of my goal weight, and did it in just a very few months time (lost about 40#). I was the poster child for the &quot;perfect&quot; weight watcher. Then life got crazy, I stopped making good choices, and regained it all, and with the ensuing years, 20+ more, or about 60 pounds.
I've been trying to think what was different then, why was it so easy? Because it was easy. What I have come up with: we had just sold our house and were living in a rental house temporarily. We didn't *settle* in, yes the kids had their toys and stuff, but there was no clutter at all. No knick knacks around, out of season clothes were in storage - it was very peaceful. I ate the same thing almost every day - 3/4 oz of Rice Krispies with milk, orange juice for breakfast. A sandwich that I made myself in the morning before I went to work, and at least 3 evenings a week 4 oz of chicken with green beans for dinner. Those 3 evenings DH was working and the kids would eat whatever I gave them. I weighed and measured everything, and wrote down every bite in my food journal. I didn't want chocolate, I didn't need it.
By the end of the summer we were in the middle of renovating a house. There was a lot of work like painting, that we had to do ourselves. I got out of my rhythm, and dinnertime was usually at the new house, so we had to eat fast food a lot. My weight loss stopped, but for a few months didn't go up either. After we moved into the house it seems like my whole world became chaotic. Instead of a nice slow move, we did it in a day, everything got moved and piled up to be dealt with later. A year later there were still boxes not unpacked.
There have been many many weight loss and exercise programs since then - Weight Watchers a few more times, TOPS, NutriSystem, SlimFast, stationary bikes, ski machines, elliptical trainers, weights, Yoga, Pilates, bike riding, walking, Richard Simmons, Jane Fonda - you name it, been there, done that.
But I keep coming back to clutter in my life, it seems like that is my trigger, I am an emotional eater. Two years ago I discovered Flylady, and have been working at getting the clutter out. When I'm doing good at it, and the house is neat and tidy, I feel so much better, and I'm not eating emotionally. But let things get out of hand and where are those M&amp;M's?
What or who is a Flylady? Her name is Marla, and she has a website (www.flylady.com), a book, and she sends out daily (lots of them) reminders about things that need doing. I need routine and from her I am getting that, I'm only fluttering right now, I have a long way to go to banish the CHAOS and FLY, but by taking babysteps, both in decluttering and in making changes to my lifestyle, I WILL BE IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE, and my emotions.