Feeling sorry for myself, (how obnoxious)

I am scheduled for surgery on Tues., March 16. I have been trying to get everything as organized as possible, work has just been crazy, and in the Real Estate business it is stuff that only I can take care of, as these are my clients. I am in a fair amount of pain, have a tension headached that has been hanging on for a week now, not sleeping much, and today, I am in the worst frame of mind that I have been in for years. I am just disgusted with everything and everyone. This is not me!!! I really don't know how to deal with feeling so nasty, and it is so extreme, I really can't hide it. Naturally today, I have some shaky contracts and have had some other brokers that have been just down right nasty...I can prove it if you want to look at the holes in my tongue! As I just reached for my bottle of meds, I realized I have to stop taking them soon to get ready for Tuesday. So what then? Do we just spend the last few days in agony?
I was very pleased that my doc. called me today at work to let me know he wants to meet with me after my uro-dynamic testing Friday, so I will know before the weekend what he will want to do to repair those issues. I really appreciated that!
Sorry to just vent, but my DH has NEVER seen me in a bad mood and I am terrified of what he is going to find when he walks through the door in about ten minutes. I just want Tuesday to get here. My mother would say, "whining does not become you, dear!".
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Ok now, take a deep breath!! First, I can't believe your DH has never seen you in a bad mood!! My poor b/f has seen nothing but mood swings lately, poor guy doesn't know if he should even speak half the time. He is so wonderful for putting up with me!! I certainly can relate to how you feel, it seems as though my pain has become a constant now, I am exhausted all of the time, I am counting down the days until 3/24 when I go to the castle. Hang in there and vent all you need to, it is good for us to do once in a while!!

Wendy

Hi there

I was going to tell you how venting can be so good for you. We all have big shoulders and understand exactly how you feel. It really does help to know you are not alone.

Mention to your doctor how stressed you are too....he may be able to give you something. It is great that you are seeing him too.

Take relaxing baths, anything that can help you relax. Explain to your dh how stressed you are...I am sure he will understand.

Whining is much better out than in

Take care

Hugs
Heather

Feb 4/04 - TAH/BSO

Hey girl, *hang in there!* We're going to make it. I really feel for you having to deal with work and all that. I at least am at home full time. But you and I only have 6 days left and then it's "only up" from there!

~~Cari~~
P.S. praying for you as I type!!

As a princess, all I can say is IT WILL BE BETTER! I'm 10 weeks post-op, and I can't believe how fast time has gone by. It was so nice to be home for 6+ weeks. Work managed without me, but cheered me back, thankfully!

It was tough going back to work (I highly recommend 2 naps a day! How I wish I could still do that now).

I remember all my stress and fears before the surgery--all the questions I had--all the PMS I experienced, and splayed on everyone around me. I feel bad for you because I know how overwhelming all of this is! HUGS to you!!! You will feel better after a time. And, hopefully, after you have lasted 10 weeks, you will be amazed at how good you feel, emotionally and physically.

You will be in my thoughts Tuesday. Best wishes for a successful surgery and speedy and relaxing recovery.

P.S. I didn't know if I would have a TAH or LAVH until after my surgery. I got lucky--LAVH. Don't know what options you are getting, but here's hoping it's an easy surgery.

you are entitled to feel sorry for yourself, this is a very stressful time. we wouldn't be normal if we just plodded along as if nothing was going on - this is a huge moment in our lives!! my surgery is the same day as yours .. i'm just spending the whole time looking at the clock counting down the hours ... feel like screaming at everyone and anyone but find it hard to let it out. DH says I can shout at him if I want but that would make me feel even worse! keep going to the toilet at work for a little weep now and then ...

this time in 5 days (counting again, sorry!) we'll be on the road to recovery. New women!!!

Stay strong! Thinking of you.

Vent all you want to. I've been there, I would get to the point I could not even stand myself. I wanted everyone else to feel as bad as I did, misery loves company. Since surgery I can't believe the difference. I feel so much better. DH likes it so far and hope it's here to stay.

I'm not flying off at the smallest thing and making everyone in my path miserable. I'm not picking every detail to pieces, just to find something wrong. Now I'm the happy person, trying to bring others up, instead of drag them down.