Not as tough as i thought i was

I am very sexual. I have not ever... not once in 3 years turned him down. lol my O are external. Never have had one from straight sex. But i get this crazy good feeling when he bumps my cervix doggy style while using my vibrator on the outside. if that goes when i have this done im gonna miss that. Ive always felt like less of a woman because all the women i knew could O from just having sex. I thought something was wrong w me even. i found out i am not alone but always secretly jealous. using my toy isnt always discreet lol noisy thing! But my bf loves the vibrations it gives him too. He is very sexual and we are so compatible. i am just scared seeing this horror stories on here that this will mess it up. even tho this is pretty much my only option to solve these issues going on.

OMG.. I'm with ya.. my surgery is 08/17...eeek.. been waiting for a date for 6 weeks, now I know and it's freaking me out...I keep trying to focus on the positive, but for sure some days the worry overwhelms..it's the "what ifs" that get me. I'm 49 and no kids, but bf has two. Having a TAH, keeping the ovaries (I hope) I have cervical cancer and large fibroids which I am looking forward to being gone and the flood gone too, awesome, but worried that when they get in there, they'll find some horrible thing is wrong.. I know, not completely rational. then there is the post op... will the sex life be the same, will I still feel like a woman...and on the positive side.. will my jeans fit better, will my bladder be happier without all the pressure of the massive uterus. hahah.. I love rollercoasters.. but not this kind.. Keep in touch on here .. and wishing you the best of luck and a quick and painless recovery.