So, what is the worst thing that could happen...

to a 36 year old woman facing a hysterectomy on Wednesday for severe dysplasia/CIS? I struggled with my decision to have the hysterectomy, because my DH an I always talked about having 4 kids. We currently have three, two boys and a girl. We decided (me more than him) that our family was complete, especially in light of what I was facing.

Anyway, to get to the point, I might be pregnant. I have been spotting for a week, waiting for my period to come and it hasn't. My husband and I did have sex without a condom once (he pulled out, sorry to be crude), so now, I am completely freaked out. I will call in the am to go get a blood test and my DH is out getting a pregnancy test (although my period is technically not late, so it won't ease my mind if it is negative). In the past, getting pregnant was not difficult at all for me, people would joke that if my DH sneezed on me, I'd get pregnant, which is only adding to my fear now.

I didn't really know where to post this. I usually post on the preop board, but there are so many women with fertility issues there, I didn't think this was appropriate there.

I don't want another baby. I will have to have my cervix stitched because it is basically incompetent after my previous treatments for dysplasia. So, I will be on bed rest, I am sure. Also, I had gestational diabetes with my three kids, insulin dependent with two of them. Also, I had pre-eclampsia with my second and was basically separated from him for the first night because I had to stay in a dark room with no distractions to keep my blood pressure down. They induced my third two weeks early and I was on bed rest for the last month due to pregnancy related hypertension. I must sound so callus and only worried about myself. I don't want the CIS to become invasive, but now I might have to wait 9 months to do anything about it. So many people have had difficulties becoming pregnant, how could I be so ungrateful and uncaring.

I am sorry, I am just ranting and am scared to death. I don't know what I will do if I am, I can only pray that I am not. I am not normally religious, but I will take any prayers I can get.

Hil
Have they done a pregancy test yet? Was it positive or negative? At least if you know it may ease your mind. I had diabetes before pregnancy and crashed hard. I had go to the emergency room where I found out I was pregnant by big shock. I already knew I could not have children due to uterine damage. A few short months later we found out I had cancer. A rare form of cervical cancer. The first cancer doctor we saw told us to have a hyst and then beging radiaion. He said I must abort the baby right away. NO way was that a choice. We knew this baby was a blessing to us. We found another doctor that chose to save the baby and then do a hyst right after. Becasue I had preeclampcia it became life threating to both the baby and me they did an emergency c-section ant then a hyst.

If it is the right thing for you to choose not to have another baby at least a test will ease your mind so you can make a deciision that is right for you.

I will pray for your peace of heart for you. Let us know what happens.

(((Michelle)))

I'm sorry to hear that you are in an even more stressful situation. When it rains, it pours.

I guess you really are in a holding pattern for now. You can't even plan anything because you don't know if you are pregnant or not. Be open with your doctor and let him/her know what's going on. Hopefully the blood test will be able to tell something definitive.

I will keep you in my 'ers that whatever is willed to happen will happen, and that you will be given the strength to deal with it--be that surgery on Wednesday or a 9-month delay for surgery. Keep us posted!

My spotting seems heavier now, but I did go to have a beta HCG test about an hour ago. It was stat, so my doctor should have the results in about an hour. I will be calling them in an hour and five minutes.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. I really need them!

So, my test came back NEGATIVE!!! Thanks for your prayers, everyone! They worked! Now, there is nothing standing in the way of my date on Wednesday!

Dear Michelle, just read this thread now and am so glad that your test was negative. The good Lord never gives us more than we can handle. I vowed never to have an operation and was beside myself when my gyn this summer told me it was the only way to see if I had endo cancer which it was; turned out to be an early stage 1b so did not need chemo, etc. only close monitoring.
I will keep you in my ers for a successful surgery tomorrow and an easy, fast recovery.
Blessings and many s peggiesue