This needs to be done YESTERDAY

That's what my gyne said today when I finally saw her. So no trip to Buffalo. I'm to see an oncologist this week or early next week. Also a urologist to check for what kind of bladder support I need. And bloodwork and IVP and I forget what else. Doctor said she'll do everything she can to get me booked in the next four weeks. She said she won't operate without the oncologist available and that he might decide to take charge when he sees me. She says it's still possible that it's benign but it is also possible that is cancer that has metastasized. Won't know, of course, until they go see. She was very glad I had the MRI.

Right now I'm relieved. I'm glad I will have people around me who I am familiar with, glad I don't have to travel far from home (20 mins!) and glad I don't have to PAY to have the surgery somewhere else. I feel taken care of.

My mind does not go to anything past Stage I cancer. I can't believe I'm begging for surgery! The first thing she said to me was 'so, after all we did to save that uterus . . .' And I said 'yeah, ironic, eh?'

Anyway, I'm sure reality will hit eventually. Right now I'm appreciating the fact that things are kicking into gear and I will get the best help that I can get.

Thanks for listening. . . .my cable is down and I'm typing on hubby's laptop, which may turn into my main computer once the surgery happens, since I won't be coming to the basement for awhile!

I'm so glad to hear that they're not dragging their feet and getting you taken care of properly and promptly. I know what you mean that it feels weird to be impatient to get operated on, I felt the same way and could hardly wait to get the cancer OUT!

I hope you'll be able to get a good oncologist and get this taken care of. Please keep us posted on how you're doing.

Take care,
Vicki

The guy I'm seeing is head of gynecologic oncology at a major hospital. I think he must be good. My gynecologist is forever flying around the world giving lectures, so she's good at something. I really trust her and I'm hoping I don't freak out too badly. So far so good.

I still don't want to think I have cancer. Was everybody else in denial? Or is it just normal to not go there in your mind? Or will it get scarier as the time approaches? I don't have a date yet, so it's still sort of unreal.

I know what you mean about begging for surgery. You just want whatever it is out of there -- quickly. I was diagnosed on a Friday when I was living in Singapore and I had surgery in the States on Monday! I think our minds/emotions take care of us and only let in as much as we can handle. There is no reason to think past what has to be tackled next; I find if I read too much I completely freak myself out. If I know I am educated enough I try to stop reading. Whatever happens you can handle it. Just make sure they take out everything they need to cause the last thing you want is to have to have surgery again! I'm praying everything goes peachy for you. Sounds like you've got all the experts on your side.

I too wanted surgery as soon as I heard cancer! It is such an evil word and knowing that I was done with my uterus just made it all seem so much easier.

All I could think of when the dr said cancer is get it out NOW. Unfortunatly I had to wait 4 months but the good news is I got my final pathology report back yesturday and it was still stage1 so no radiation for me yahoo!!! Good luck with your surgery.

Cyd, if you want more snow you oughta come HERE.
We have SO much snow! It just keeps coming and coming and coming.

And Debbie, GOOD FOR YOU! That must be such a relief.

Sounds like Jennifer got one of the more speedy removals! That would be so nice . . . well, whatever happens, I'm just hoping for the very best - for me and for everybody else.

Hi Artic:

I just wanted to voice my support for all you're going through. It sounds like everything is moving right along.

I know what you mean about possibly being in denial about having cancer. I was diagnosed with Stage 1B cervical cancer in June 2000. Like everyone else, I wouldn't know until after surgery if it had spread. Even now, 7 months later, it's hard to believe I had cancer. Fortunately it was contained, and I didn't have to have any further treatment. I don't think I was in denial, I just don't think my mind ever really accepted what was going to happen. It was like I went on autopilot.

Keeping busy before surgery was definitely a tremendous help. Sounds like you're finding that out yourself. I'm also glad to see that you've got a terrific husband and kids to be with you through everything. That makes all the difference. My DH :inlove: stayed with me the whole time. I couldn't have done it without him.

Just remember, everything you are feeling is completely natural. Please keep up posted. This site was a lifesaver for me when I was going through my surgery (pre and post too).