gyn appt. monday-can't wait

I have a gyn appt. monday that I was referred to by my family dr. to do my hyster. I am so anxious that I just can't stand it. I am so afraid this dr will try to talk me into some kind of treatment rather than following my wishes. I have suffered with this pain for as long as I care to. I am supposed to start my period on the 14th but the way it has been going it could be any day now. On monday-1-31-05 I had 3 lumps removed from my right breast. I have fibercystics disease and some of them get painful and I have them romoved. I had this done once before in 2000, I think. I don't remember feeling this crappy after that one. The weather can't make up its mind what it wants to do but I told my MIL that no matter how bad the weather I would make it to that dr appt. Even if I had to hitch hike the 8 miles to get there. I have fibromyalgia on top of all this and with me being so anxious I think that may be part of the reason I feel so crappy. I feel like a kid at Christmas. I am counting the days and hours. I hope I don't have to wait to long for the surgery. I am rambling and I know I am but I just can't help it. I just want it to be over. I am just so tired of being in pain. I have two fibroids one in my left ovary and one in my uterus. They aren't huge but big enough to cause me pain. I really can't do a whole lot to occupy my mind right now due to mondays surgery. Which by the way is starting to itch like crazy. Natural reaction is to scratch right.........not. To sore.............LOL. OK I am shutting up now.

Hi, I'm sorry that you've been going through so much. I hope that your appointment with the gyn goes well.

Take care, no sctatching

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