Cant stand much more

Here I am again, still feeling sick as a dog. I have tried my very best to be patient.

Im clueless now on what to do. I went to see a new dr. who doesnt return my calls.

She seemed very knowledgeable, put me on the ring and one pump of the gel.

got an infection and out came the ring, upped the gel to 2 1/2 pumps per day and 3mgs of test. dhea was set at 25mgs.

feeling rather ill for 6 mnths and looking like i crawled out of my own casket, still not feeling better i stopped the DHEA and still dont feel any different.

4 wks. now, on estrogen. I feel like a zombie an empty shell, a nobody.

dont want to have sex, have no interest in anything much. Life is not fun, i dont even want to bath some days, but i have to go to work.

im almost ready to go on the shot again, but she warned me that once it gets into the tissue it can reach dangerously high levels of estrogen.

im starting to figure out that my body doesnt do well on bios, i need something strong something that will stay with me.

2 1/2 pumps of the gel and i still dont feel like im getting enough.

the testosterone troche is only making my clitoris hurt, so thats working.

i just dont know what to do anymore, and she wants me to wait for the 6 wks. to draw levels, im so tired of this i cant stand it no more.

im ready to say give me premarin, the one drug that has been around for years that they know most about, and all the warnings are the same, im at my wits end.

I HAVE HAD IT.

I don't have any technical answers for you but am sending you many hugs as I am sure you could use the support right now. Just know that you are not alone here! I am lost in the jungle as well right now and some days I wonder if I will ever see the light of day. All we can do is keep trying different things. If I were you I would find another doctor more willing to listen to how you feel and willing to try something else. I am not happy with my doctor either, even though he did an excellent job with the hysterectomy itself. He just seems clueless with the hormones. No matter how much a doctor may seem to know about the hormones, they don't live in your body and they don't know what you go through everyday. If you want to try the Premarin, you should have that right also. Don't let the doctor decide what is best for you when it comes to hormones. I believe they should just educate us on what they know about the different hormones and allow us to decide which ones we want to try. Unfortunately, it seems like doctors are either gung ** on synthetic hormones or gung ** on bioidenticals. Just keep fighting and don't give up! Hopefully someone else will be along with more experience to give you some advice. I wish you the best and take care!

Thanks for the kind words, i actually have been feeling good these last two days, so maybe just maybe the hormones r finally kicking in.

i hope so.