Hi, new here, hyst soon and scared

Hi everyone,
This is my first posting. I am 25 years old, and will be having a full hyst in 29 days on August 18th, 2006. All reproductive organs are being removed, including my cervix. I became symptomatic with Endometriosis in November of 2001, and have only gotten worse since then. I have tried every hormone treatment under the sun and my body just does not respond in a positive way. I have had 4 laparoscopies in the past 4 years, with some (but not enough) success. This past march I was diagnosed with adenomyosis also.
From a physical and medical perspective I feel like I'm getting as ready as I'm going to be for the surgery (even though I still have a lot of researching to do on the subject), but what I'm most worried about is how I'm going to react emotionally after I wake up from the surgery. I'm afraid that I'm going to regret it or hate myself for taking away any remaining chances of my ever being able to have children. My boyfriend is incredible, and we are really excited about being able to adopt children in the future, but I still can't help but feeling like I'm going to be an emotional wreck after the surgery is over. I've known for years that I probably wouldn't ever be able to have children, but this is so permanently final and there's no going back.
Does anyone have any advice for me about how to emotionally prepare for this hysterectomy?

I wish I could tell how to prepare yourself but there is no way. You will have some emotional days but also so good days. One of the ways I tried to look at it was I was doing this for my health. That has help some but I still have those days were I feel down. Try to keep your head up and best wishes.

Oh Makai, I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this at such a young age, but there are just so many children out there that need wonderful homes. Blood lines don't make a family, love does... I'm sure you'll make a great mother, so don't look at it as losing your chance to have children, look at it as having a better quality of life so that you can enjoy the children you will have!!! Our prayers and thoughts are with you.

Hi Makai,

I too am sorry that you are dealing with this at such a young age, and I agree with everything that Paulab05 said.

If it makes you feel any better, I was also unable to have children, and never met my prince charming, so never had the opportunity to adopt a child. I was, however, blessed with 2 nieces and 3 nephews, the youngest of which is three years old, and I have to say that I don't feel like I've missed out on anything. I receive Mother's Day cards from my nieces, nephews and my pets, and my sisters were always nice enough to include me in all of the kids activities, so maybe that made things a little easier for me.

I will be praying for you so that God gives you the strength that you will need to help you through this.

Please let us know how you are doing.