New parts are scary...anybody else?

OK...so i went for my 3 week post op yesterday (TVH/bladdersling/TVTO/ A&P repairs)...dr said everything healing nicely! YAY for that. She wants me to start putting Estrace cream in everynight to help with the healing. So last night i tried and...boy are things different down there! Sorry if this is tmi but i'm hoping someone else has noticed this too! It was very tight/swollen at the opening...and i could feel all the stitches...it wasn't easy to get applicator in and i didn't proceed far at all...very scary...Has anyone else had to do this after A&P repairs? My new parts are scary...i don't mind a little "snugging up" but I hope things "relax" in the next few weeks!

I am very anxious about how the new AND IMPROVED parts will be. Haven't had the nerve to investigate. First post-op will be next Tuesday. I guess I am even more concerned about the pathology report findings. BUT if that goes as well at everything else has gone....all will be well.
LAVH/BSO/Ant. Repair/TVT 3/22

I do not have to do that for my hyster and repairs! I have been wondering about the new and improved. I am still concerned about how difficult bowel movements are.

I haven't had any problem w/ BMs or gas. I had had to start meds for high blood pressure months ago in order to even have the surgery. I feel that those affected my very regular system....NEVER EVER been constipated in my life. Do use Benefiber in my cranberry juice each morning.
I also wonder how the incision is healing in the vagina where the bladder was repositioned. I have attempted to watch the videos of surgery but there are so many approaches to the access, so many different "styles" of sling, so many variables. I hear so much about the cervical cuff and ensuing problems. My gyno/surgeon said my vagina would be shorter but she wasn't going to use the mesh there. I am VERY fearful of the mesh used for sling. I still have some stiches very very low...wondering if that where the labia was "tacked" up or where the sling was attached. I am worried about the stability and adipose tissue in that area. BUT I have no pain/no problems/no insomnia/no complaints but I AM TAKING IT VERY VERY EASY!