Feeling Good About Feeling Bad

7 days and counting until my TAH/BSO on 10/23.

Yesterday I had a pretty good day - in fact almost pain free! And I was seriously questioning my decision to go ahead.

Then today my pain is back in a moderate state and I am actually happy about it! It just reconfirms why I am doing this.

I have been charting my pain for the past 133 days. Yes! I keep a chart on excel with the date & cycle day. I then put in notes as to the degree of pain and any other facts that I feel are relevant - pain meds, blood flow, etc.

I looked at my chart today and discovered that of the 133 days I have been doing this, there has only been 29 days of "mild pain". I described mild as only being slightly aware of my lower right quadrant area. The rest of the days vary from moderate to intense.

So, as I said, I am actually happy that my gut instinct to have this surgery is confirmed here on the last countdown!!!

Oh! And thanks to all of my "sisters" for this site!!!!

I really do! I have been thru the same thing since I got my date last week for my TAH/BSO the 15th of Nov. The pain has come and gone, instead of being there ALL the time..... and then Aunt Flo came to visit..FOR THE LAST TIME!!! and I was reminded rather rudely by her why I am 100% glad that I am only a month from becoming a . The pain and flow this time was awful. My periods usually last about 12 days..and this has been a real 'winner'. NOT.

Trust your gut--you know what is best for you and for your life. I can't wait to get my life back. Pain free. I can't even imagine sex without pain. don't care if I have my cervix or not...just to not tense up at the thought of sex is going to be wonderful!

I will be praying for an easy recovery for you.... see you on the other side.

IN HIM,

Dawn <><