TAH: So nervous my date has been moved up!! Some graphic material and kids mentioned

evr since I was told I had to have this surgery I was devastated. I have no kids I gave birth to but I do have 5 kids whom I helped raise that love me. My husband is the most amazing man. He doesn't act like this is a small thing, he actually holds my hair while I'm sick! I can't ask for any better. We've been trying to have a baby for so long, the last ectopic almost killed me. I just celebrated my 36th b day dec 19th.
I spent all night last night in soooo much pain, I begged god to end the pain I cried so much I said "i put it in your hands lord I do"....and at 10:16 am this morning my hospital callled to reschedule my surg for THIS FRIDAY JANUARY 7th....wow......wowww,wowww
I'm going for blood work today at 1240. I am severely anemic so I'm so weak right now but sisters I'm really ready to be done. I am bleeding so much right now that I keep having ut contractions every 10 min all day and night. I feel like I'm in labor cause the clots are so huge I have to push them out...illll!!!! Did you all have that problem too is that from the fibroids part or the adhesions part? I've had 7 abdominal surg. And the last time they had to go in (8 years ago) when I awoke I was told I should never ever have abdominal surg again. Doc said I have massive adhesions and they tried to clean up what they could but it will come back. I didn't have the hysterectomy like the doc suggested then cause I wanted kids and didn't believe what I was being told I wanted another opinion but I was already morning the loss of another baby and the pain in recovery, and not ready to let go of being a mother yet ( letting go of my baby oven) I wasn't ready.
so now I have to prepare and I'm scared but ready to be done. This feels so surreal.

Jan 6th 2011 TAH with one ovary staying hope fully if it looks good and a clean up of adhesions and wrapping of organs, so when adhesions come back they won't fuse my other organs together like now.

(((((((((((((hugs))))))))) Good luck on your surgery.

more hugs!!!!good luck

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Originally Posted by lightheart evr since I was told I had to have this surgery I was devastated. I have no kids I gave birth to but I do have 5 kids whom I helped raise that love me. My husband is the most amazing man. He doesn't act like this is a small thing, he actually holds my hair while I'm sick! I can't ask for any better. We've been trying to have a baby for so long, the last ectopic almost killed me. I just celebrated my 36th b day dec 19th. I spent all night last night in soooo much pain, I begged god to end the pain I cried so much I said "i put it in your hands lord I do"....and at 10:16 am this morning my hospital callled to reschedule my surg for THIS FRIDAY JANUARY 7th....wow......wowww,wowww I'm going for blood work today at 1240. I am severely anemic so I'm so weak right now but sisters I'm really ready to be done. I am bleeding so much right now that I keep having ut contractions every 10 min all day and night. I feel like I'm in labor cause the clots are so huge I have to push them out...illll!!!! Did you all have that problem too is that from the fibroids part or the adhesions part? I've had 7 abdominal surg. And the last time they had to go in (8 years ago) when I awoke I was told I should never ever have abdominal surg again. Doc said I have massive adhesions and they tried to clean up what they could but it will come back. I didn't have the hysterectomy like the doc suggested then cause I wanted kids and didn't believe what I was being told I wanted another opinion but I was already morning the loss of another baby and the pain in recovery, and not ready to let go of being a mother yet ( letting go of my baby oven) I wasn't ready. so now I have to prepare and I'm scared but ready to be done. This feels so surreal. Jan 6th 2011 TAH with one ovary staying hope fully if it looks good and a clean up of adhesions and wrapping of organs, so when adhesions come back they won't fuse my other organs together like now.

Dear Lightheart,

My prayers are with you for a successful surgery and recovery. Please keep us posted.

Sandra
LAVH/BSO(severe endo/adenomyosis on tubes, ovaries and uterus) pain free and feeling great.

I will definitely pray for you. I know I went through tons of confusing emotions before my surgery. Up until the very last moment (me on the bed waiting for surgery!) I questioned my decision. I realized it was the right decision when I started passing HUGE clots at that moment, hours before surgery!! It was so incredibly painful and the doctors said they felt so bad for me. Even before surgery, I was bleeding profusely. They told me later on that they realized had I not gone in for surgery, I'd be at home having that incredibly painful and messy period.

You will be okay! I also suffered from anemia and every other complication and I've felt 100x better now that I got rid of the uterus!

Good luck to you!

Wow ... you've had a rough ride. Mothers are made in all sorts of ways - and many of them don't require a uterus. Keep praying.

thank you all so much for your support. I went for my blood work and everything is set for this friday jan 7th....im scared and sad at the same time...reality for me is I'll never be a mommy to my own baby.....tears flowing freely

Lots of hugs and good thoughts coming your way.
I have two amazing biological boys, but am also going through a kinship adoption - so I know families can be made in many different ways, and they are all just as valid and good. I can only imagine your sense of loss for this aspect.

I had my op on 12/30, so I'm day 4 on recovery. I too questioned the decision right up to the moment I went under the general. Its just not an easy one, no matter what. What worked for me is to keep reviewing the facts - the pain, the heavy bleeding, and the 'down time' that this causes. I'm 46, and the median age of menopause is 51, so I could have lost several years of my life with the at least two weeks per month downtime.

I am finding it very normal to mourn the loss of my uterus, ovaries, tubes and cervix. I even created a little memorial area in my garden with some prayer flags and a candle.

All I keep thinking about is I'm now over that horrible medical bit, and if I just take good care of myself now, I wont have to revisit that bit. It is a big hill to climb, but you can do it, and then you can get your life back. Good luck in your decision.

I want to wish you good luck, send you hugs and hopes for a speedy recovery!

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Originally Posted by Blyss Wow ... you've had a rough ride. Mothers are made in all sorts of ways - and many of them don't require a uterus. Keep praying.

AGREED 1000000000000 times !

You are in my prayers. {{{{{Hugs}}}}}