Big BooHoo

I went in for my first 3 month follow-up (which was actually 4 months post op for me) on Tuesday. I could tell I was still pretty sore inside when he put the instrument in to do my pap. He saw a polyp on my surgical cuff (I think) and said this needs to come off and he just cut it off! It hurt worse than my endometrial biopsy, vulva biopsy and surgery combined! :cry:
He said he is 99% sure it will be benign. I get the results tomorrow, Friday.
I have been sore and tired since. But worse than that I can't believe how emotionally devastating this has been.
I was feeling pretty much on top of the world beforehand. It was just such a shock and felt so invasive when I thought all that was behind me.
I had been so strong through my whole surgery and recovery process. I guess I'd let my emotional guard down and the vulnerability just caught up with me. I never felt sorry for myself or wondered "why me" during the whole process. I figured we all have stuff to deal with and I know many of you have had so much more to deal with than I have.
I guess it all just hit me. I've just wanted to crawl under a rock and not come out. It's taken me 2 days just to be able to post.
I know this too shall pass and I will recover. But I had felt recovered and now I am back doing it again.
Thanks for listening. I'll post my results tomorrow.

Oh, I'm so sorry! Owie, owie, OWIE!

Here's a

Evie

What a disappointment to think it's a routine check and wham! Of course it's hard--you think all is on the mend and then a pesky polyp shows up. It's that "back to square one" feeling. The wouldn't have said he was 99% benign unless he was indeed that sure--but that blasted wait is hard. Yes, getting them out is painful. I had one take me by surprise once--I went in for routine check, then (now retired) gyn said there was one, I said I'd make an appointment to come back to have it removed, and he said, "Oh, no, that's not necessary. Here it is." And there it was! Well, by the time I walked back to work (about six blocks) I was ready to double over--I mean, it was beyond cramps. You'd think they could at least use a local. I hope by now you're feeling better and you go ahead and post all you want and :cry: all you want and then have some : as well.

Ohhhh ((((Shelley))))
Big hugs girl!! I am so sorry you had to go through this, and I know how hard it must have been when you weren't expecting anything, and have been feeling so good!!
But its so great that he feels its totally benign!!! Thats very good news Shelly!!!
It is hard to go for these checks and we always want to believe everything is fine. I said once, I truly will not relax about this stuff until I hit the 5 year mark and althought the appts are getting eaiser as I approach the 2 year mark, I just can't seem to let myself relax about it all.

I hope you feel better soon. Just rest today and take it easy!
I am sure the results will be as he thought, so thats very good, and I look forward to seeing you post the good news!!
Sending healing hugs to you!!
Maria xoxo

I meant to say that the doctor wouldn't say IT was 99% benign and not HE was 99% benign. Hopefully he's 100% benign. I think I need some : here as well. Please let us know the minute you get the report!

OH, SHELLY
THAT'S THE PITS!!!!

DARN ANYWAY!!! WELL AT LEAST HE SAW IT AND GOT THE THING OUT OF THERE.
HOPE THIS IS IT. I AM SURE IT SHOULD BE.
OUCH!!!!

s Shelley

I was aware that you hadn't posted yet about your visit, and was getting a wee bit concerned. So I am relieved to hear from you friend!!! I agree that your doc wouldn't have sounded so certain it was nothing if he weren't almost 100% positive. So hang in there one more day!!!
Some days the tears just need to flow. I say let them fall!!!!
It feels good and is very cleansing!!! And we are human after all!!!


karenann

Shelly, We all deserve our own Pity Party once in a while.I'm sorry you had to go through this. I'm sure everything is ok!

Shelley, I hope everything works out for you. You've been there for so many people. Here's a big for you. And sending positive thoughts too.

Sandy
LAVH May 13

{{Shelley}}

I'm so sorry you had such a rough visit, especially since it hurt so badly.

I'm glad to hear that he feels its nothing to worry about, and hope when you get your results today, that those back them up.

Keep us posted on how your results turn out, I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayer for GREAT results!!!

{{hugs}}

Vicki